Wednesday, May 27, 2015

The Spirit Helps Us in Our Weakness





Pentecost, Year B – 24 May 2015
Seven Marks of Discipleship: Prayer
Our Redeemer Lutheran Church, Grand Prairie, Texas

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During seminary, I spent six months as a hospital chaplain, completing what is called Clinical Pastoral Education, or CPE. For six months, I ministered to a variety of patients, dividing my time mostly between the Med-Surg floor (where people were often recovering from surgery), the maternity floor, and the NICU. In these areas, I could develop relationships with some of the patients and their families because often those patients were there for an extended period of time.

At times – especially when I was on call overnight - I would be paged to respond to a situation in the Emergency Department or the ICU. Sometimes, these calls would come in the middle of the night, and so, off I’d go at two in the morning, to be at the bedside of someone who was about to die or to sit with family who’d just lost someone.

In some ways, those calls were the most difficult because I had no relationship with the patient or the family – and so all I could do was help in whatever ways I could help. Sometimes that meant finding a blanket or a pillow or a cup of water. Sometimes that meant heavy discussions about end-of-life decisions. And sometimes – though not always – that meant sharing a time of prayer with the patient or their family.

The first few times I prayed with a patient or families in these cases, I felt awkward. My awkwardness felt awkward, too, because I was the chaplain! I was the one who was supposed to know how to pray, right? I was the one who supposedly had this direct connection – from my lips to God’s ears.

And yet, when I started out in chaplaincy, each time I prayed, I felt inadequate to the task because I didn’t know the whole situation. All I knew were the scattered bits I could pick up from my pager or a nurse or doctor or from a family member. All I could do in those moments was to receive those bits of information, and then, as I prayed, try to listen for the words that God would lead me to say.

At some point, the passage from Romans 8 we just read came to me: “Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but that very Spirit intercedes with sighs too deep for words,” Paul writes.[1] And there was such relief for me as a hospital chaplain, living into these words that Paul wrote so long ago. It was as if the Apostle Paul was placing a hand on my shoulder himself and saying, “It’s OK that you don’t know, because God knows, and that is enough.”

“The Spirit helps us in our weakness,” and the image that comes to my mind is that of someone who has sat down on the ground and can’t quite get back up again. (As you get older, once your rear gets lower than your knees, it’s a challenge!) When that happens, you’re stuck until someone can help you. Sometimes that’s how we feel when we are praying for others – we feel stuck in our ignorance – and that’s when the Spirit comes along and gives us a hand up, off the ground.

The Spirit doesn’t wait until we are strong to help us – the Spirit helps us while we are weak. In fact, sometimes it is our weakness that helps us be open to the working of the Holy Spirit. When we are strong, we don’t feel the same need for the Spirit.

Today is Pentecost – it is the day we remember the Holy Spirit descending upon that early Christian community with a rush of wind and tongues of fire. Yet, sometimes in our prayers, especially, the Spirit lands softly – and whispers.

After Communion today, I will offer prayer and anointing as we’ve done here countless times before. This’ll be the third time this week I’ve done this (Conference pastors and Wednesday). Each time I offer prayer and anointing, I am struck by my own ignorance because when people come forward for prayer - even those of you that I know pretty well – I don’t know everything on your heart and mind that is leading you forward for prayer.

All I can do is offer a prayer of blessing, and make the sign of the cross on your forehead, reminding you of the Spirit who came upon you at your baptism – the Spirit who accompanies you each day and every day of your life. This is the same Spirit who intercedes with God for us – intercedes with sighs too deep for words when we have no idea ourselves what to say in prayer.

Last week, I talked about how much we search for God’s will, and yet this passage from Romans tells us that knowing God’s will when we pray really isn’t all that vital. The Spirit knows the will of God, and the Spirit intercedes with God according to the will of God. So where our prayers feel inadequate or incomplete, the Spirit makes up the difference for us.

We’re focusing on prayer this month, and so I have a prayer challenge for you. It’s in two parts.

First, take a look at the person sitting in front of you, and then the person sitting behind you. (If you don’t have both, pick someone else sitting next to you.) You don’t have to know them or their name. You don’t have to know their life story. If you don’t know them, introduce yourself later or make up a name for them in your head.

This week, I’d like you to pray for them – by name or nickname. Pray for them at least once per day – maybe while you brush your teeth or drive to work. It’s OK if you don’t know what you are praying – just pray, and let God worry (as Martin Luther said).

Second, take out the prayer list. This week, rather than putting this paper into the recycle pile after worship ends, take this list home. As you go through the week, work your way down this list. Cross names off as you pray for them, if that makes you feel better. Again, if you don’t know what to say in every situation – or you don’t know every person on the list – don’t fret. God knows them, God knows their hearts. You pray, and let God worry.

Amen.

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[1] Romans 8:26

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